The summer holidays are almost over and it hasn't been a boring long summer at all. I found a job at a supermarket and worked there for 3 weeks and believe it or not, I quit the job!
It was fun, my collegues were nice and I was enjoying to be around people while I was working but it was draining all the energy out of me, not that this was the only reason I quit the job, I also did it for my parents, they begged me to go on holidays with the family (which I totally regret though), and another reason was because they told me I could start therapy really soon so I thought it was the right thing to do. My boss was very positive about me though, and he told me that I could come back anytime I wanted. Also when I told him the reason that I quit, he was proud of me and he wished me all the luck.
So the very next week on Monday we left the the entire family on holidays, by car. We made a few stops: Munich and Vienna. And especially Vienna was an amazing place, I recommend everyone to go there. It has history, shops, great places to go out, it's a great place for the youth.
And one thing: don't go with someone who can spoil the trip, that's what happend to me and even though the place was magical, I never talked this much with my parents about how I felt. I didn't help, nopes, but I learned that the next time I won't do anything to please people.
It's time to stand up for myself, to think about me and not about what others will think of me if i do or don't do something!
Same happend to me this week. I was supposed to do something with friends but I wasn't comfortable at all with it and I told it to my friend whom I see every week at a meeting and thanks to her she convinced me that I should stand up for myself and don't make myself feel miserable just so I didn't have to let people down.
And when I told my friend about that the plans changed I saw that she was upset and together with her mum she make me feel as guilty as hell.
But I'm proud of what I've done, you're on this planet for yourself, if you're not happy and you're doing things you don't want to, you'll be as miserable as hell!
So please speak up what's on your mind and don't be afraid to upset people, because how many times have you been upset because of what people have said or done to you!
